16 Weeks
These days, it seems like
everything is changing! From my body, to my emotions and even my outlook on
life, it seems that everything is new. I’m not going to talk about body
changes, because we all know what happens to a woman’s body in pregnancy. And,
to be honest, I haven’t been at all surprised or bothered by any bodily
changes… yet.
My relationship with food,
however, has changed quite a bit. I was shocked to come to the realization a
few days ago the relationship I now have toward food is very different. I now
eat to be healthy, for energy and to make sure I’m giving the baby the
nutrients he or she needs. I can’t lie - I do often eat to satisfy my cravings too
(I SWEAR I’m not abusing the I’m-going-to-get-fat-anyway-so-what’s-the-difference
line). But I have no guilt about the occasional indulgence in some Wendy’s
fries, a chocolate cupcake or a bowl of ice cream after supper. Before I was
pregnant, I was constantly thinking about the amount of calories, fat or sugar
in my snacks, wondering how each treat would affect my waistline – and I did it
subconsciously! I never realized until I started truly enjoying full, balanced
meals without thinking of calories how much I had actually done that. It’s been
a welcome change to not have to think of my figure each and every time I eat,
but I think about nutrition instead. This has been one of the greatest changes
I’ve experienced so far.
Another big change I’ve been
experiencing is in my emotions. I’ve never been an emotional girl. Sure, I went
through my “woe is me” phase in High School (and it seems like I cried all of
my wedding day, which was very out of character for me) but I’ve never been the
type to cry in a movie from reading a sad story… until about a month ago. One
afternoon I innocently said to husband, “I don’t think I’ve really had any of
those pregnancy hormones yet”. That evening, as we settled in to watch a movie,
I got my first dose of hormones! At one point during the movie he put his hand
on my shin, and I swatted it away because I thought it was too sweaty. So he
got up and went to sit on the chair and I IMMEDIATELY burst into tears, sobbing
“why don’t you want to sit next to me?!” I haven’t had too may other crazy
outbursts since that night, but I do find that I’m much more sensitive now. I
cry when I watch commercials with babies, I cry when I watch “A Baby Story” and
I cry when I get hit in the head with soccer balls (see my previous post). I even get emotional over songs on the
radio – happy or sad!
I’m not going to say that every
change I’ve been going through has been a pleasant experience, but for the most
part I’m really happy to be experiencing them. I feel like they’re forcing me
to grow up a little and to discover a little bit more about who I am as a
woman. Also, I know this is nothing compared to the changes that are coming! I
still can’t believe I have already hit 18 weeks and am almost halfway through my
pregnancy! Now that my belly is starting to pop, and my nausea has completely
dissipated I say wholeheartedly: “bring
on the changes!”
18 Weeks - Belly is starting to pop!